Testimony of two worlds apart

International Bliss:
"AFRICA!! Still want to go to Africa with you!!!!
And why would you feel like you did not do something right? ?You were so sweet to me during our days at Ole Miss! I'm glad we met! so remember that when you think of me... You and I were meant to cross paths and we have a friendship that will continue on!
Also, how is your family?? Your mom? Be sure to tell her I asked about her!"

Something like love she said: 

"Luckily, one morning last year, I woke up, and "smelled the coffee" and I knew, it was time to pack up...and let sleeping dogs lie. So I did. I realized that our relationship was over before it started...although I tried to believe he would treat me differently from every other girl, atleast just because of our friendship, I thought I could change him, but I was wrong. I could not patch anything up, that was just the way he was, and it does not make him a bad person (because he did have good intentions and wanted to be faithful (well that's what he said), but he just couldn't), it just makes him...well NOT good enough for me. I am not going to play a victim, because I knew better, I knew what I was getting into...now I know better. Like I said, lesson learnt!

So now I know, to never settle to be treated for less than I deserve. To never try to change or hope to fix another human being (when it comes to love and relationships). I know to accept certain realities about life, like the fact that people are people, we are who we are. My current knowledge takes me back to the quote byMaya Angelou "if someone shows you who they are, believe them," which in this regard implies that if I had paid more attention to my ex's actions, and not his words "or many promises of wanting to change," I would seen exactly who he was. I would have seen that that was not the relationship I wanted or needed. I would have known it was not love, because if you love somebody, you do not hurt them. You respect them, and more importantly, you do not take advantage of their trust.  

 I now know that (my ideal type of) love is simple without complexities or pride, with no if's or maybe's. Love is full-speed, it's giving all of yourself, it's that look in a mother's eyes when she sees her new born baby, it's that look in a groom's eyes, when he sees his bride walking down the aisle. Love is waking up in the morning with smiles... love is a beautiful poem, it is an inspiring song, it is not painful, it does not cheat, lie, deceive or hurt. Love is faithful, love is real...Love is...just LOVE."


TeamWork: 
"As i look back an the last several months that we have worked together in Brown and Kincannon Halls,I see a strong and consistent leader.I see a man who leads by example both academically and in his job performance. At first,your quiet ways seemed to be the sample of the quiet and reserved person i would be working with this year:but after these few months,i know it is not true.Everyday i appreciate your ability to quietly take in what is going on around you and being handed to you to accomplish,and i marvel in your ability to wait patiently for explanations and for all the peices of the puzzle to come together. The ability to patiently wait for full deails under the high stresses of positions like ours can sometimes take people years to master,and it is a skill i still aspie to acquire oneday"


Birthday Wish

"Happy Birthday to the sweetest,kindest most thoughtful guy i know.... Wishing you all the best on your day!! Love you muaah"

Unquestioned Answer: 
"Having known this fella for a little over nine months, and with steady acquainting ourselves with our inner triumphs and fears, growing fond of his "ruthless and raw" character has turned out to become somewhat of a "given".

This man, and anything pertaining to him has become my sweet indulgence. One thing for sure, i continuously shower him with all my "seemingly naive" sweet, genuine truths. I just feel like he deserves the best in life. I know not of his wrongs or where he's fallen short of respect, but nevertheless, i am inclined to pray for him everyday, mentioning his name aloud. The few times that I've called to check on him, his wisdom has bitten me hard and kicked me into reality (which is what I need from time to time).
Well, this day October 18th, 2010, I promised myself that I will not shun this man but instead distance (with utmost subtlety) myself from him for a meaningful time; pull myself together and decide what kind of support I would benefit from him, because i am falling in a "trap"."


Emotions "You would make someone really happy one day...you have a good personality,you're funny,you're hot yellow cute,you're carefree,fairly clean and responsible. You just need to work on your communication and openess skills"

"I dont know... I just always felt like you were battling with something on the inside... Like I only knew what I saw not you for real"

" Hey, this is so random, but who would you say is the closest person to you? ...I imagine you as this popular guy who has tons of friends,but has no issue riding solo or being solo Or...your friends dont experience the whole or total you...idk if i make any sense lol...or maybe thats just my own personal experience with you."

• • Fight Risk: 
    "Wow... hes such a punk man!! why didn't he talk to you about it, if he did have a problem.. instead of trying to knock you out...
    You should have punched him back then.. since he's a dick head"

What are your conclusions about this kind of guy?

☆Jubril Blaize☆

 September 2011

Note:These are actual true accounts.I put them together to see what picture they depict... ?? 

Are we prisoners of socialization?

This is just a brisk write up about my thoughts about socialization.

Lets start with "what is socialization?"

Socialization can be described as a continuing process whereby an individual acquires a personal identity and learns the norms and social skills appropriate to his or her social position. My answer is a big Yes!. That is to say we definitely are prisoners of socialization. Life as it is i.e. from birth to death encompasses a high intensity of socialization. Males and females have different patterns they would at the most follow from birth, to adolescence then to adulthood. This has been so from generation to generation except for some anomalies.

Our level of socialization most times even defines our hierarchy in strata of Life. The way a literate would socialize is way different from the way an illiterate would. We are quick to judge and classify people according to socialization in these modern times. We live as though we owe socialization.

First we are guided by the social patterns we see at home by our parents, (who bring us up) then the opportunity of education comes in i.e. going to school where we mix up with people of different social strata, beliefs and backgrounds. Most likely at this stage we then discover our sexuality by socialization. After school, we join the labor market which happens to be a bigger socialization field for us humans. And it just gets bigger and more complex as time goes on. We join different leagues, clubs, associations and groups which mold and define our social characteristics as we age.There also exist what i call dividends of socialization.It can then be classified as good or bad. If we grow up with the wrong beliefs,and these beliefs fire back at us then we yield bad dividends unless otherwise it would yield good fruit.

For example a young man hurt by a woman who gets misguided by boys with bigger minds and egos than those young men they call “friends”, “homeboys” e.t.c would most likely end up being hard hearted/unemotional towards the women folk. Same does apply to their females should the same happen to them.

Is it not an irony that we can talk about casual sex openly but frank discussions about sexuality that unfolded within loving relationships are a taboo?

Thanks to socialization.

☆Jubril Blaize☆

     July 2011

Remember me...

"You are agitated today because you don't want to be constrained by your social obligations. Unfortunately, it's very hard now to focus on the tasks at hand. There may actually be too much happening in your life these days, which can leave you feeling overwhelmed. Remember, your emotional response can deplete your energy unless you are willing, on occasion, to address your own needs first."


I am not a fan of horoscopes but i came across this today.That's what my horoscope has for me today the 1st of January 2011.Its 6.57pm in Baltimore,Md.My current emotional state: disrupt with no energy to recover.Brain battery level: 15%.So maybe these horoscopes do tell the truth.
I have a feeling,just a feeling that theres a deep message embedded somewhere in this simple message.since i am now aware that grandiose gestures are in style now,i will therefore not limit my thinking.
After a brief discussion/arguement with my mum my mindset has been tampered with.Hence i must learn that If i must set boundaries to keep people out of my personal life, i will do so in a respectful and kind manner.
This to say,HAPPY NEW YEAR.

☆Jubril Blaize☆

    January 2011